Sunday, September 19, 2010

I'm Still Alive...Really!

Hey, its me, Alicia. Yes, I am still alive. So much has been going on I don't know where to start. Let me start with THE most important person that I love...my daughter Alexis. Well she is 12 years old and looks like she is 15 or 16. I tell people that she really is 12 years old and they look at me like I am lying. I'm not lying people. She really is 12. She just started the 7th grade at Lakes this year. She loves going to school. She likes most of her teachers and gets along with other people. She just started volleyball and loves it. She will also start basketball and track later in the season. What else is going on with her?!?! She is getting ready to spend the weekend with her dad who is once again being deployed to Afghanistan to fight in the war over there. Not too happy about that! This will be his 3rd time over there. So he is picking her up to spend a few days with her first.

As for myself...when Alexis left to go to California to spend time with him at the end of June, beginning of July, I was planning to start my diet. Its called the HCG diet. And let me tell you...IT WORKS!!! This is my blog and I can write what I want to on here, so I will tell you what my weight was and what my weight is NOW. I started out at 248.8 pounds and am now down to 223 in a matter of 45 days. I am actually getting ready to purchase 2 more bottles for 2 more rounds of this and I get down to my ideal weight which is approx. 150 pounds. Go me!

I am planning a trip to Disneyland in December. Why December you ask? Well, because I am hoping it won't be too busy during the holiday. I will have the money to go then and I want Alexis and I to enjoy ourselves and just have a blast. We are going to Disneyland, California Adventure, Universal Studios and Knotts Berry Farm. I am also going back to school in January. I can't wait, I need to get my degree so that I provide for Alexis and myself. Ok, I am tired and am going to bed. So I will post another in a few days.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Dragonflies!!

About a month ago as Alexis and I were leaving the house, I opened the door to find this amazing dragonfly that landed on my screen door. For those who know me, I love dragonfllies and I actually want a tattoo of one with my daughter's name and birthdate on it. They arent the best quality pics of this amazing flying creature, but you get it. I know that dragonflies mean different things in the culture which you believe. But I believe they mean maturity, change, and good luck. But those are just a few.


Monday, September 14, 2009

First day of school

So Alexis has started middle school and seems to like it. Except for the dreaded lock on her locker which she has a rough time getting it open, she has adapted very well. I, on the other hand, just seem to be getting more irritated and annoyed with each passing day.

Alexis brought home a note stating that every 6th grade homeroom class would be going camping starting on the 14th and ended the next week, with each class going for 3 days. She brought this home on Thursday and tells me her class is scheduled to go the 14th-16th and that it would cost $60. Now, being a single parent, I was really annoyed that they didnt let us know about this ahead of time, like...maybe at the BEGINNING OF THE SCHOOL YEAR. And then she also needed to bring a dozen snacks to share with her other classmates. So here I am working my 40 hours a week, being tired and my feet aching from standing 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. The letter stated I could pay the $60 now, break it up into payments or donate some to the school to help another student. Well, it never said anything about writing a check or paying cash, etc etc. So after working 11:30-8:30 on Sunday, coming home to pick Alexis up to buy snacks and wash and dry clothes, I finally made it to bed around 4am. Alexis wakes me up at 7 and we grab all of her stuff and haul it to the school and into the office where I ask them if its okay if I write a check, which I then proceeded to write and hand it over to my 11-year-old daughter. Then her and I walk her stuff to her science room, leave everything there and head back to the office, where her and I were reprimanded for walking in the building before school. Now this teacher got me even MORE irritated. Do I really look like I am in middle school???? I looked at this teacher and told her we were dropping her stuff off for camping and the teacher said "oh" and with no apology walked back into her room. HOW FREAKING RUDE!!!!!! As I hug Alexis goodbye and tell her I will see her on Wednesday she heads off with Sadie and I walk myself BACK into the office and proceed to ask the secretaries if this is how middle school is with being notified 3 days in advance of trips, need money, etc etc. I then asked about picture day which is THIS Friday and she tells me that the packets are going home today!! Well, my daughter isnt come home today, so that wont work, so I took one of their packets home with me. Seriously, this is ridiculous. Many of you also know that Lakes Middle School is now Lakes Magnet School and that the kids have to wear shirts with logos on them. I got a few shirts free from the monogram company, washed them a few times and now the logos are coming off! CHEAP! Bringing them right back to have them redo them.

What else is going on with Alexis and myself?!?! I am working at Home Depot full time, and pretty soon will be getting health and dental benefits finally. Too bad I didnt have them back in May. Oh well! I requested information from the University of Phoenix and I hope to hear from them soon. Working at this low wage job is not cutting it for me.

Anyway, I will post more later.

My beautiful baby girl on her first day of school.


Thursday, July 2, 2009

short post

I figured I needed to update my blog because I havent in quite awhile. Not much going on over here. I have been off work for a month now and will be going back hopefully next week. I am a little poor here.

Alexis survived the 5th grade (I knew she would!) and will be moving on to middle school. Yikes! So much drama in the 5th grade, can't imagine what it will be like in a few months. One good thing is that the middle school over here (one of them anyway) is turning into a magnate school, which will teach these kids the basics, but also science, health and art. Alexis has a list of classes she will be able to take such as...Anatomy and Psysiology (yuck), scrapbooking, photography, STOMP, CPR training (love), and others that will change every 9 weeks. All of the kid also have to wear polo shirts with the school emblems that will cut out all the "what shirt can I wear today" drama. Because really, some of these middle schoolers today disgust me with their little belly shirts. Some of these shirts not be allowed at school, and now they arent. The students get 9 different colors to choose from, but we, the parents, have to have them sewn on. So polos and sweatshirts for the Fall. I also got Alexis a cell phone. Her dad actually purchased the phone for her. I was shocked! And I get to pay the bill each month. Yayy! But its $40.00 a month for unlimited texting and minutes. And believe me, this girl can talk....or text.

What else is going on... I'm thinking about trading my truck in for a car. I am tired of not having a backseat so that when I am watching my niece and nephew, I can actually take them places and take them safely. But, I guess it will have to wait awhile.

I've taken lots of pictures in the last few months and can probably put them into a few new posts. So give me a few days....

Sunday, May 3, 2009

2-in-1 Surgery for Me!!

This week I had Tuesday and Wednesday off and then I was scheduled at work for a 9 day stretch. I wasn't looking forward to that. Wednesday started out like any other day. Woke up around 10 the 2nd time that morning and took a shower, got dressed, brushed my teeth and thankfully washed my hair. I had to run to the bank to deposit a check, I then went to Home Depot to get a few things, and then to Big Lots because its actually an awesome store. I had to get some plant food for the plants. When I went into Home Depot I talked to one of the head cashiers, Paulette, about having to work 9 days straight and how I wasn't happy with that. Did I mention I work there? She said she had to work the next 7 days and sometimes they do that to you. She then mentioned I might be able to go home early on Saturday or Sunday. Yeah! So, I left and did a few more things around town and went home. I picked Alexis up from school at 3:30 and I felt great. I had put a pot roast, with onions, potatoes, carrots and seasoning into the crock pot around noon and it smelled sooooo good. My mouth watered!

Around 5:30 as I was dishing out our dinner, my stomach started to hurt so bad. Now for those who know me, and this might be a little but too much information, I have IBS, which is Irritable Bowel Syndrome. This is where you get terrible stomach cramps, etc etc. A few of my family members have it, but I wont mention their names. I have had it for over 10 years. This pain was NOTHING like IBS pain. I finished eating and felt like I had eaten too much food. You know how it goes? So, I unbuttoned my jeans thinking that might help. I took a bath, because that usually helps with the IBS and still nothing. It hurt to even move. The sharp stabbing pains were right above my belly button and it was moving to the lower right side, but very slowly. Alexis was worried about me, and at some point joked around with me because she is used to my tummy aches/cramps all the time. I told her this was different. I also thought it might be either food poisoning from a Burger King whopper I ate earlier or maybe gas. I decided to wait a few hours to see if I still had the symptoms. Alexis wanted me to take her Baskin Robbins for .31 cent scoops of ice cream. I considered taking her, but I thought I was just "full" from dinner. Alexis still wanted me take her and I told her no because of the tummy pains. I called my mom (like I always do!) and asked for her advice. She, of course, told me to go in. Alexis and I even googled appendicitis and yep, its located on the right side, and not the left like many people think it is. I told Alexis before she went to bed, that if she woke up, and I wasn't home, I would be at the hospital. She was okay with that. After taking my temperature over and over again, the last temp I took was at 11:00 pm and it was 99.1 Normally my temperature is at 98.6 and/or lower, so I knew something was going on.

So I went to the ER and arrived at 11:15 pm. Because I was the only one in the ER at that time I got right in. I had a few nurses and nursing students come in and ask questions. I had my blood taken and had 4 x-rays done on my chest and abdomen. I then sat there and sat there some more and some more. They told me over and over again that because they weren't busy that it wouldn't take too long for the results. The nurses there checked on me twice. Luckily I didn't die right there because they would never have known. Sorry, being a little sarcastic there. I mean, seriously, if you DON'T like your job, then find one you do like. OK, I got off track. One of the nurses came in around 1:45 am and noticed that I was in a little bit of pain and asked me if I needed some pain medicine, I agreed. I was laying on the hospital bed on my side, rocking back and forth. She said it would be a few minutes because they would now have to start an IV. They should have done this when they took my blood. Oh well. At this point, I asked them to call my twin sister, Melissa, who is a registered nurse up in labor and delivery and I knew she was working. After a phone call and a "she is down in the cafeteria on lunch" and my reply was "can you let her know her sister, Alicia, is down in the ER?" Approximately 5 minutes later, Mel, was down there in the room with me. At the same time, a hot nurse Justin and a nursing student were in the room trying to figure out where to put my IV since my veins are buried. First they looked at my left arm and I was like there is no way you'll find one there, I was right! Both hands were out. Finally Justin was like, your vein is so buried we have ONE shot at this. The nursing student was shaking her head no because she was afraid she wouldn't be able to do it. Justin even looked at the space right underneath my shoulder and armpit. I was like NO WAY. Talk about a sensitive spot! They even looked at my feet. HA! Needless to say, he got it. Mel was shocked that the situation had come to this. Nothing like this happens to me. I thought I would be home in bed getting ready for the next 9 days of work. They started giving me anti nausea meds and pain meds. Justin said I would feel it all of a sudden and because I was sitting up, I suddenly was like dizzy, and warm and I said "I need to lay down". Everyone started laughing. Mel eventually had to go back to L&D to help deliver some babies, but I did get to meet her friend and co worker Amy, who all of us play a game on Facebook. About an hour later, they told me I would have to go for a CAT scan after drinking 2 FULL cups of Barium and almost puking it back up.

Whew!

You still with me?!?!

As they wheeled me down for the CAT scan, the nurse that was pushing me along, told me the doctors told her that she needed to push me very gently and be careful of any bumps on the floor. Odd huh? The CAT scan was a little weird to say the least. The meds they pumped into my veins burned and I was a claustrophobic. I squeezed my eyes tightly so I wouldn't start freaking out by being inside of the machine. At this point, I honestly just wanted to go home. I even thought about just leaving. It took them forever to give me any information and I assumed there was nothing wrong. *sighs*

Around 5:00 am, the Dr. came in and informed me that I had a grapefruit size cyst on my right ovary and he was calling the OB-GYN to discuss the removal of it or drugs to maybe shrink it. He also said they didn't know if my appendix was swollen or not, but it was extended. They were waiting for...who knows. Around 7 am or so, the nurse came in and told me they were admitting me and I would soon get my own room. I was shocked! Nobody was telling me anything and I was getting angry, irritated, and just full of anxiety. I called Mel back up in L&D and told her what was going on. She took care of Alexis that morning and told Alexis that "I was having more tests done". She and I didn't want to worry her before school.

Still with me?


Finally around 8:00 am or so I was moved into my own room. It was actually quite nice and so...quiet. It also had an awesome view. They were changing nurse shifts so yep....I got the student nurses again. *sighs* She was learning the computer and I could hardly understand what she was asking me. Finally after an hour of my medical history, we were done and I was left in peace.

Then the doctor that Mel works with came in and told me that yes my appendix was the main reason for the pain and the cyst was a lucky find. So it was basically a 2-for-1surgery. He told me there were 11 other surgeries that day and because I was a stable, healthy female I would be in surgery sometime between 4:30-5:00 that evening. I still couldn't believe I was getting ready to go under the knife...again. When I was 13, I had carpal tunnel in both wrists and it required me to go for surgery at 2 separate times for each wrist. Then approx. 10 years ago, I had my wisdom teeth taken out. These were minor compared to this one! The Dr. told me that the cyst was on my right ovary and that they might not be able to save it or my fallopian tube. I didn't know what to say. Many women have hysterectomies, but I, myself didn't want to lose any part of me including my ovary or fallopian tube. Drugs were an option to shrink the cyst, but because it was so big, they weren't sure if it would totally shrink or not. I was calm! My older sister came to visit me around 9 am or so, she brought me some bootiful flowers w/ a card and sat and talked for awhile, then Mel showed up. Now, because Mel works there she has access to the computer with my medical information on it. She brought up my cat scan and we were all just so silent after seeing the huge cyst. It was unbelievable. You would think I would know something that big was down there, but I didn't. Dava, my older sister, left around 9:45 so she could be at work by 10 and Mel left around 10:30 because she had worked the whole night and needed sleep. At this point, I had had 3 hours of sleep, I was so tired, and not to mention HUNGRY. No food for me though! Now that I think back, I didn't even get any ice chips. Jeez! I took a warm, relaxing shower and washed my hair since I couldn't shower the next day and for those who know me, know that I wash my hair every other day, otherwise, gross. So I took the shower and got back into bed and was just about sleeping and my grandma arrives. We talked about the past and the future. I was so tired, but didn't fall asleep. My grandma left around 4ish to meet Mel and the kids (including Alexis) to go out to lunch at Arbys. I talked to Alexis for a few minutes over the phone and Mel had told her what was happening. I was fine with the entire thing until Alexis started crying, I just tear up now thinking about it. We told each other we loved each other and that I would see her soon. I called her dad, my ex husband Jason and let him know what was going on. If for some reason I didn't make it, she would be on her way down to San Diego. He wished me luck. I also called work and let them know I would be out for an entire week. So right now, it looks as though I will go back on Monday.

They wheeled me out around 4:35 pm and put these legs covers that wrap around your legs and then blow up constantly like a blood pressure monitor around your upper arm. As they pushed me through the Surgery doors my anxiety level raised and I started to freak out a little. I actually started to wish that my mommy was with me. Hey I'm not embarrassed to say that. Who knew I was 31 years old. But I didn't show my anxiety. The nurse there gave me some relaxing medicine that she said might give me amnesia and she wasn't sure I would even remember our conversation, which I do. I was then given a plastic warm blanket that a long hose was inserted into and I was so warm. The surgical rooms were freezing!! I had to switch beds and they put an oxygen mask on me. I had 2 people on either side and 1 person at the head of me. I went to sleep.

Whew!

I woke up to the doctor explaining to me what had happened. But all I remember thinking was pleasssse be quiet. I am so tired. I remember seeing Alexis, Mel, Brandon, Jessica, and my grandma and that was it. I honestly don't remember much after that. The doctor came in when I was actually awake and explained things to me. The cyst was actually on my fallopian tube and not my ovary. They were able to save both which I am very thankful for. And the removed my appendix as well since this was the main reason for the pain I was in. The procedure that they did on me was called Laparoscopic Appendectomy. This is where 4 small incisions are made in my abdomen. One in my belly button, 1 on each side of my belly button and one under my belly button. Then a long metal tube with a tiny camera is inserted into these incisions. There they take out my appendix and the large cyst through the larger incision in my belly button. That is the most painful incision. The others I forget are there.

I was released Friday around 1 pm. Mel picked Alexis up for me and I met them at her house at 5:00 pm for dinner. Its now Tuesday and I can sleep a little better now. I have been a little nauseous and sick to my stomach. I have a doctors appt. on Thursday, so we will see what happens.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Selfish People!

Uggg, I just don't understand people. Why are people selfish? Why do people do the things they do. Let me explain a little bit.

Every year when I was little, for our birthday we would ALWAYS get something from both sets of grandparents. They would give us a card, money, savings bond or just something special for growing another year older. We would always have to put half of what we got into our savings account for the future and that was just the way it was.

Fast forward to 2009, Alexis is now 11 years old. When Jason and I were married and together, both sets of grandparents would always send something special for her birthday, we would have birthday parties for her and it would bring everyone together. Now that we are divorced and we have moved to Idaho, Jason's parents do nothing for Alexis. I send them pictures every year when honestly I don't feel the need to. But I do it regardless. Jason's father called me 2 weeks before Christmas and wanted to come over and pick us up to celebrate Christmas with them, which I don't think was the truth because he mentioned my mom and dad still living there. We got 4 feet of snow so we werent able to make it and I also had to work, whew! Jason's father also told me they had something for Alexis, but its now almost April and I have yet to see a package. J's mom lives in Montana and the other day called me up and told me she was in town and had just driven past our house. I was excited to see her, and to Alexis it was a surprise. They were down here purchasing a Chocolate Lab puppy for $400.00. What drives me crazy is that they can spend that money on a dog, but cant even bother to send Alexis a birthday card. I even hinted to her that Alexis was 11 now. She didn't hear me or acknowledge it. Now, all Jason does is deposit money into my checking account on Christmas and her birthday. But it would be nice for Alexis to at least send her a card, you know. Maybe I shouldn't be writing about this on here, but I get so damn angry. I don't want people to think Alexis is a little snot who expects things on special occasions, but to see her disappointed over and over again...

I would spend my last dime on one of my nieces or nephews birthday presents and ask Melissa, I have. I am single, and a single parent and its hard. I will be going back to school in the Fall, but I will post more about that later.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

March Showers Bring March Flowers!

So last fall I planted a BUNCH of tulips and other flowers that I dont remember. With our 4 feet of snow I wasnt sure if they would come up or not, and well...they have!!! I am excited! Its March and we are still getting snow showers, then sun, then rain, then show showers...you get the picture.

Today, I went out to my garage and I needed to start cleaning it up because..well..I couldnt even get out the door. After manually pushing my 4 wheeler out of the garage so that I had room to move around, I started cleaning. I noticed that my daughters cabbage plant has started growing again, I am going to give it to Melissa and Steve (sister and bro-in-law) so they can put it in their garden because they own their home and I just rent. My daughter came outside to just stand there and do nothing, and she was like "Mom, look at those!" The pot that I planted was out in the garage the entire time and they actually grew without water. Strange! Here is what she was pointing out.



Arent they absolutely beautiful?? Oh, Spring is around the corner. Hurry up!! Sorry for the ugly background, all of our snow is almost gone and it left behind some ugly brown, dead grass.